A bruised ankle (owing to the incident/accident when my scooty skidded in a save-the-puppy on the road attempt) and an entire day’s roaming had certainly calmed me by the evening. While some bits of me wanted to pop in a painkiller and sleep the evening off, I headed towards the beach after the customary put-a-bandage routine.
The horizon looked a dark blue and there was no one in sight. I flopped down in the sand, finding a spot where I was almost invisible from the road above. Building sand castles was out of question that day, for I had a very evident limp which seemed to throb from the inside.
So I sat there by myself, listening to the waves, wondering if I would ever tire of roaming by myself. Will I ever need somebody to pore over a gorgeous sunset by my side? While the answer, in all the general sense of the world, should have been a yes, it came out in negative. One, I detest (almost) talking, and there are very few others who appreciate silent conversations. Two, there’s nothing that feels lacking even when alone.
Some distance away, a tiny bird was sitting on a rock, in the middle of water. It would lower its neck and scoop out a worm (maybe) and eat it gleefully. I wondered about the rest of flock, until I resolved that it might be my kind.
It looked happy, I felt happy. It was enjoying a meal, I was gorging over some food for thought.
A crescent moon was on its way up from the sea, lighting everything in a fascinating hue. In that instant, we were the same color, that bird and me.
In that instant, I knew I would never tire of roaming alone. For the world has solitude etched all over, in that bird, in the huge yet one sea, in the moon that was but one, in the fisherman’s boat that was scouting the waters alone.
Perhaps Gertrude Ederle got it right in these few simple words – “To me, the sea is like a person — like a child that I’ve known a long time. It sounds crazy, I know, but when I swim in the sea I talk to it. I never feel alone when I’m out there.”
This post was first drafted on a beach at Diu. Dated January 20, 2014.